Movingforward- Yes I hope he knows I did what I could have for him, and he is in my thought daily. I believe there are no regrets, just things that could have been said or done, and yes god knows and it was meant to happen that night, and there was nothing more I could have done that night then did what I did. With me, however, I never show my emotions, I keep them inside of me, but inside I felt like a piece of me was missing, both when my grandpa passed away and when my friends passed away. That is also why I never get close to anyone either, I always fear that I might be hurt, or left out of events and other stuff, so I never get to close to anybody, I guess it's not healthy, but idk what else to say.
I know how it feels, when my grandpa passed, I was at home (we lived an hour from my grandparents place, and my dad and brother had already gone to their house.) He passed away after we got there. Aww man, I'm sorry you had to see mom go out like that, when someone I know passes away, it just seems like another part of you is gone. I visit my grandpa's grave every 2-3 months, and we always pray for him at our cemetery (in case you are wondering, I am a Muslim...). Just tell your self that you did what you could have and said whatever you did and not think about it anymore, it doesn't change anything. I remember telling my Grandpa I want to become a CHP Officer, and he encouraged me to go for it if that is what I wanted to do. I hear you, that you have not been able to go back, but do your best to be happy. Life is too short to be anything but happy.
Im actually in my second semester of community college, in my second year. And of course, I don't want it to happen to me, but life will somehow throw a curveball, and things change, but I things do get better. Yeah I'm going to, I just got it to get my foot in the door with them, and I'll close it soon. And yes, there are those of us who are not there just for the paychecks, some of us want to make a difference in others lives, whether it be good or bad. Like an Officer once told me " You want to come on to this job for all the right reasons". I too hope they will pass it one day and I'll be able to going into my dream job. Right now, I'm planning to go into a financial/ real estate type of career (loan broker, underwriter, financial analyst) until the state starts hiring again, so I'll at least be able to make more to be able to support myself.
Thank you for the kind words as well.
Aww thank you movingforward. You're making me feel old...lol. The reason why I have responded so late is because my gf and I went to Disneyland today since I had the day off from work.
Also I want to be an officer that cares. I truly care about anyone I know and I would do anything for my family and friends. I was actually talking with another of my bosses yesterday and he and I were talking about our respective horoscope signs. His son and I were born 3 days apart and he was saying how were alike in the sense that if we had a dollar in our pockets and we saw somebody that needed it, we would not hesitate to give it away. That's what I truly want to be. Another of my co-workers was telling me that he would find it hard for anyone not to get along with me and both I'd those things made me feel good. That and coupled with the nice post made my day. And to be honest I treat everyone how is like to be treated, for I may never know what someone else may have gone through. I will always strive to be the best officer I can be and I hope to make a difference in someone else's life. My gf has been with me since 7th grade. So she has been with me at my worst and I am always awed because of how she puts up with me.
It's not good to be a loner. You have to go out and make friends. I know the feeling of hurt and that people change, but you have to have friends. Do you have a family or any kids? Ahh I see. I have a lot if friends from my High school days but we have grown apart so now it is different. But go out and enjoy life if you can. It's not worth it to have no companionship or find something you like like a club and join. I played football in high school and I did my best to make friends with everybody on the team. Time changes things though.
One of the things I learned during my time as an explorer was to always listen to my parents because they have been through things I have not. And thankfully I've avoided most things....so I listen. I do hope that my credit goals will work this month as well.
The reason why I mentioned I was a Muslim was because on another forum (not credit based) I had someone question my beliefs so I thought I'd post it so at least you know where some of my beliefs come from. That's awesome! I can't tell you how many ignorant people I have met who think like that and thank you for the kind words, I've always told myself that I want to be known for who I am and what i am, rather then what I am not. Always be honest with yourself and never compromise yourself for who you are. We all have our strengths and weaknesses and capabilities. I'm the same way, I always judge by character and what is apparent to me.
And I'm glad to be a part of helping you recover. I also had the unfortunate opportunity to put my dog to sleep. She was diabetic and she was miserable and there was no point if she was not going to get any better. So you and I know both know what we have gone through losing family and friends.
I do hope that it does happen. Thank you for the kind words. I have gained some weight since last playing football ( I shattered my leg during a game and didn't exercise much so now I must get in shape and hope hiring begins soon.) I agree very much with the last sentence and I hope life will become everything i want it to be.
bumping post. I'm going to proceed with my plan and hopefully all will work out by by the end of this month.
I just wanted to post an update. I decided to take a risk (and ruin my plan...I was being dumb..lol. Sorry movingforward!) and went for the BCE on April 9th. Unfortunately I was denied and these were the reasons that were listed: Length nof time accounts have been established, Length of revolving account history, Too many inquires in the last 12 months, Lack or recent information on installment accounts, and lastly, The length of time you have been a customer with American Express is to short. They said on March 16, 2013 they said my score was 715 (higher then I thought.) Thankfully it was a soft pull, but does this mean I am still in the garden or am I out? I also plan to go for the Chase Freedom on May 1st, and then May 10th for the Delta and maybe PC (I've seen it done..lol.) to the BCE, I plan to leave a 20$ balance on one of my cards and have that report, so that could help. Anyways that's an update for now and I will let you guys if I get approved or not for any other cards, once I'm approved though for both cards or PC, I'm set until I get a better job or graduate.
Lexie- My goals are to obtain the last 2 cards, and then I'm set since I have so many. I might as well try for the Delta (if I dont get approved for it, I'm going to cry..lol.) I also set up a student checking and savings account with Chase (they are where I am going to keep my extra money and stuff.) So maybe that will help. If I don't get approval online for the Freedom, I'm going to talk to my personal banker and maybe ask him to talk to UW to maybe get it approved. I don't mind the small limits either since I would think my credit is going to get better as time goes on.
As for the Garden, yes, I think I'm out and I'm going to keep myself out until May 10th, and then come back in with either approvals or denials...lol.