Ok, I'm trying to deep breathe through my anxiety and that's not helping, so here I am.
Some may remember that last month we paid off a significant amount of hubby's debts...from a 15 year old student loan, to delinquent child support, to old collections...all that's left is $1000 worth of meds over 2 years old.
Met with my mortgage broker Monday because we found a house we liked, and she wanted to see it with me. She took 4 hours out of her day and drove to the country with me and was a great help.
Now, here's where my nerves come in. She's a great broker, who helps people fix their credit, much like my own personal Shane
. She pulled our credit...some of the stuff I paid hasn't completely updated and we're going to fix it. He has O score!! NO score at all. She ran mine, which I though we weren't going to do since I haven't worked in 9 years and am acquiring student loans. I have a 587, 590 and a 650!!! And she says we can probably get my scores up paying off a couple things.
She says she is running my credit too because she is trying to fit us into all types of programs, some of which require the spouse be on the app. We only have $7000 in savings, and she doesn't want us to use more than $1500 tops to get into the house. What if I have to pay off a bunch of crap I don't even care about right now? What if my student loans throw our DTI off? They're all in deferment, and are actually helping my scores right now, but...
I'm nervous. I mean, I made a stupid mistake on our checking account 2 months ago and cost us over $300! What if they tell us no for THAT?
I need a Valium. No, make that 2!!
I'm a tree hugging, peace loving, non-patchouli wearing new kind of hippie chick trying to find a comfortable balance in this consumer-driven world. I just wish I didn't have to care about credit.